Headed Into The Weekend

Well, so far I'm doing good. I feel great!!! Already my clothes are fitting better. Things that were too tight to wear now FIT. That is an awesome feeling.

Yesterday was very productive to me. I walked and jogged a total of a mile. When you've never really jogged it's an accomplishment to do so. I was very proud of myself. I would power walk a while and then slow jog a while. I rode the stationary bike for about 20 minutes. My butt went numb so that was enough for one day. LOL. I did cruches and planks which for a fat girl is hard.

Food:

I am eating Quakers Weight Control Oatmeal it comes in Maple and Brown Sugar, Banana Bread and Cinnamon. I've not tried Cinnamon yet but the other 2 are great!!! Then a Turkey sandwich at lunch. For dinner I cooked 8oz boneless skinless chicken breast (a breast cut in half, the calories were per serving, 12 servings to a bag and 6 pieces in the bag, Broccoli & Cheese Sauce and Brown Rice.

The Broc & Chz was only 45 calories a serving. You can buy it in your frozen dept at the store and I think they are called Steamers. I can eat Broccoli but it isn't my favorite, last night was wonderful!!!. The bag had 2 1/2 servings and 4 of us ate it. LOL. The Brown Rice was the biggie. It had 100 calories per serving but there were 3 servings to the bag and 4 of us ate it. The Rice was also in the frozen area. Cooked the chicken (120calories) with a little liquid smoke and a dash of season salt and pepper on both sides. I served the chicken on the rice and then we had the broccolie & cheese sauce. So the whole meal for each of us was 120 (1/2 a chicken breast) 30 (Broc & Chz split 4 ways) around 70 (Brown Rice shared between 4) so the whole meal was 230 calories. We were all full and waited awhile and had dessert. You can now buy all the little Mini's which run 60-100 calories each. Mom and Dad shared Twinkies so about 50 calories each there. I had a Brownie 100 calories and later I had a Suger Free Jello 10 calories.

Counting calories and such is hard time consuming work but it's worth it. I'm eating healthy and having a hard time getting all my calories in. LOL.

I'm starting a Blog with Recipes, Tips and Ideas for Calorie Counting if you have any ideas or low calorie recipes let me know.

I also joined The Biggest Loser Club and I am awaiting my books. I'm very excited. People are already commenting on a change in me so I'm doing some good.

First Day of Contest AM

So today is the first official day of our weight loss competition. I got up and was so sore today and I really didn’t work out yesterday I did some running in place at work but that was it.

I haven’t done laundry this week so my “easy” clothes were dirty so I had to pull out a button down shirt and a short skirt that was very tight last time and both fit perfectly. LOL. I did a happy dance.

As for what I’m doing. I am working out with my Wii Fit because it is fun, basically and it weighs me and keeps the little graphs going, which I love statistics. Then at night when I’m getting ready for bed I dancercise and then I lay down and do leg lifts until I can’t anymore and then I do 5 more with each leg, I raise my legs in the air and do the same with a scissor cut. I do crunches, and twists and it’s all on my comfy bed. It’s working out great for me.

Moving is the most important part. I had a hard time finding the energy to do it but I bought the One A Day vitamin Weight Smart Advanced so it has energy control and it gives me big time energy but without the high feeling of diet pills. I just have pure energy. If I take the One A Days for a few weeks and then forget a couple of days I don’t get that downer feeling, or at least I haven’t so far. So I am very happy with them.

Something else I would recommend is the Quaker Instant Oats weight control hot cereal. I put water in it, zap it and eat it, no butter or milk or extra sugar, nothing. It’s not 100% as good that way but it tastes very good!!! It is definitely better than nothing. LOL. I had that for breakfast and I'm working on my first bottle of water so go me. LOL

So in a 2 month time I have lost 6.4% weight loss so far this year. YEAH!!! That is very good. Now I’ve kicked it in high gear. I know my metabolism is up because I have tons of energy. I sit and bounce my legs, and I’m constantly moving. So far so good!!!!!!! After putting on my outfit today I’m feeling REALLY good!!!!

It's Official

So today my family and a friend or two started our very own Biggest Loser Club. We put our "dues" in each week and someone will win all that money. Please let me be the winner. LOL

My long term goal is 100lbs. Short term goals are 5lbs every 2 weeks. It's alot of fun because there are alot of us competing.

I was told about the Biggest Loser and found episodes online for every season. I'm addicted!!!

Thursday Feb 19, 09

Well, staying in my calories and working out pays off. LOL. I've lost a total of 20lbs since the first of the year. Do you know what an accomplishment that is for me? My tummy is flatter, my love handles are disappearing and **gasp** my legs barely touch. OK, those are all the "lovely" parts of being overweight.

I've been watching episodes of the Biggest Loser that I downloaded online. Those people on there inspire me. If they can do that in a week, I should be able to that in a month or so.

I'm not setting big unrealistic goals for myself, I'm just setting goals of doing better. This year is for ME, I'm being selfish and don't care. I've rid my life of alot of stress and even though it is making people a little ticked off at me, I'm not going to kill myself over life anymore. If I want to do something I will and if not I won't, people will deal!!!

I'm not doing this for any reason other than me. It's not to get married, if you didn't like my overweight (comments can get back) then you won't get a chance to love me skinny. I accept my friends as they are, their fat or lack of, their new cars or old. New clothes or used. I DON"T CARE!!!! I'm not in peoples lives because of their looks or possessions. I love my friends because of them, their personality and quirks, that is what life is full of. I don't understand why people can't love others for being themselves.

So, this year is the year of Taniss. Nothing more, nothing less. What goes, goes and what comes will come. Go ME!!!

This is for me and my health. I'll decide what will happen in the future when I'm slimmed down and healthy again.

Until then I'm just proud to have gone through "that time of the month" and not have gained weight, all the pain and bloating and I only went up .2lbs. Not 2lbs . (POINT) .2lbs. Then I continued to lose. That gives me confidence I can do this. Even when my immune system hit the bottom and got really really sick, I tried as much as possible to keep pushing and I did it and came out on the other side all the better!!!

Now this weekend of wedding rehearsal dinners and groomscakes, I should lose something. LOL. It is keeping us BUSY!!!

Met Another Goal

I'm very pumped!!!

I met my 2 week goal a day early. Yesterday I was a bit bummed because I had a .7lb gain. But there were things to factor in. First off, Thursday night we were craving pizza and wings so we ordered it and I ate 2 slices of pizza and 2 wings and I had a couple breadsticks, WAY too many calories but I hadn't really had anything to eat calorie wise so it wasn't so bad. I lost everyday until yesterday and up I went. I blamed the pizza and it's that time of the month so some gain there also. Then today I got on the scale and 2.2lb loss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That put me .4 below my goal of losing 5lbs in two weeks. I was so very excited and VERY proud of myself. That is the second time I've lost my 5lb goal before the 2 weeks were up.

I'm not being super strict in counting my calories but I'm eating ALOT less calorie wise then I was. I am drinking enough water to swim. LOL.

I've been so sick I was getting pneumonia but I think I've beat it. But because of that I haven't been able to really exercise like I was, but I think I've over this mess so hopefully I can get to it.

Sick

Why is it everytime I really start working out I get sick? Everytime!!! I have this stupid cold/something weird. I feel like stuff is growing in my throat how sick is that. For a while I was concerned I had or was getting pneumonia again because my chest was hurting so bad on the left side. But I coughed until I hurt all over and though it's sore it doesn't feel like my lung is filled up. So I don't know. My nose is kind of runny but not bad. I'm not sure maybe a respritory infection. I have no voice and am quite miserable.

So I need RECIPES!!!!! Low Cal, Low Fat, just whatever but recipes.

I need quick easy tasty stuff for eating at work. Also I don't have much time to cook and such so send them all but anything quick would be nice.

Welcome!!!

Because of the personal nature of my blog it's invitation only. So if you were invited that means I feel like you are a person in my life that will be an encouragement to me. Those of you that were invited first aren't exclusive anyone can read it but since my weight and things are on here I'm not going to publicly post all of that on here. LOL.

Would you???

So, I'm not asking everyone to waste time telling me I'm good or whatever, it's just an accountability thing, knowing I'm putting it all out there and I'm really serious about it this time. I know it isn't going to be easy and I'm going to get discouraged that is why I invited you to help me.

Love you all,
Taniss

My Weightloss Journey

OK, all my life I have been overweight. Being fat isn't what I want to be but when I'm stressed or upset I've always just eaten something. I'm actually not a huge eater but I like really bad foods, LOL, I love things that taste really good.

So about 10 months ago I got sick, not just a little sick, I was very sick. I was having severe headaches, I ached all over like the flu but no fever. I couldn't concentrate and it was horrible, I had no idea what was wrong. I started blacking out and having chest pains. Since I have no insurance I was trying to just ride out what ever illness I had. I was having some weird pain in my side also. I was sitting at work on a Friday and suddenly got chills and felt like I was going to throw up, it wasn't the first time but it was by far the worst. I grabbed my phone and ran to the bathroom, I sat on the bathroom floor leaning against the wall praying no one came in because I didn't take room to lock the door. Suddenly I just knew I was going to pass out. I called my Mom and told her if I didn't call her back in a few minutes to call and if I didn't answer to please either come or call 911, I was that scared. I was terrified, and as I sat there on the bathroom floor the pains finally subsided and the cold sweat/chills stopped and I started feeling a little better. I went straight to my desk and called my doctors office and they told me to get there as soon as possible. When I left work I made it to my Dad's office and then to my doctor. My blood pressure was outrageously high. since my doctor wasn't there the nurse practitioner gave me some water pills and sent me home. Saturday was horrible, Sunday was worse, I started passing out and my head hurt so bad. I had bought a blood pressure machine for my house on the advice of the nurse but it was registaring to high so I went down to CVS and my machine was right, it was way too high. I was scaring my family by how sick I really was. So Monday I went back to the doctors office and saw my regular doctor and he asked why I didn't go to the hospital. I was soon to be 31 and my doctor looked me directly in the eyes and asked if I wanted to live until I was 40. The more he talked, the more he made sense and really hit home. So I started making small changes, not so many soft drinks, healthier choices in food and then of course my meds. LOL.

So in a year I've lost some weight (not enough) and I've honestly never known anyone that was really large and lost weight in a healthy way. Shawna (my cousin) started talking to me about a diet she had started and was eating low calorie and she was losing weight on it. So I take my time and played around with it.

For Christmas I got a Wii and then right after Christmas I bought Wii Fit and it is so much fun. I workout for 30+ minutes at a time and don't realize it. It keeps up with my weight and BMI and there are graphes and charts to look at. I enjoy it and I have goals to work towards.

So welcome to my weightloss journey where it's real. My ups and downs on this journey. The fun and easy stuff and the hard stuff too. I do need the support and help of my friends. I need good healthy low calorie recipes or ideas of things to eat that are tasty, no nasty cardboard stuff, I need flavor!!!

I have an ultimate goal weight and I am about 80lbs for it. It's not what Weight Watchers told me to get down too it's about 20 pounds heavier but my goal isn't to be skinny minny or to get too skinny it's to get to a healthy weight.

Low self esteem has been something I have always fought. I have supportive family and friends who always assure me that I'm pretty regardless or that it doesn't matter if you are fat or skinny just be you, but the reality is it does matter. No one says things to your face but I've had well meaning friends try to fix me up with nice Christian men and to over hear them or for it to get back to me that I was a nice girl, fun to hang out with but they don't like overweight girls. That hurts espeically when I never ask my friends to be a certain way or look, I take them just like they are and I've always longed for the people that would take me as I am. I am thankfull for the people that my paths have crossed with that do take me for who I am. That extremely shy person that doesn't know how to put myself out there. I am a very loyal person who will go beyond the norm to help those I love the most. I will give of myself and not ask for anything in return.

I know what it is like to give all of myself to others and be hurt in return. So the last year has been a real struggle over all. I've gone through really rough times emotionally, physically and health wise, and also with my family. My parents and their ups and downs with their health. Then some things from the past popped up and what a roller coaster ride but I finally realized that Taniss had gotten lost that girl that used to wear the "bubble bee outfit" my yellow jacket, purse AND shoes. The one who was known for my attire and the way it expressed me. That person was gone, in her place was a fat, depressed, hurting, slob that really didn't care about anything anymore. Life had passed me by and I had stood there and let it happen. I realized I was the only one that cared, if I wanted to be a active person in this place we call earth then I would have to do it alone. So here goes, it's funny since I've made this decision people have tried to drag me back and it won't happen anymore. I am a unique person with desires and dreams of my own and I won't stop until I have them.

So for you that join me on this journey to support or help out with ideas, thanks. This is a warning though, I don't express myself vocally but I write, and so my happy times, sad times, mad times and angry times, will all be here just like on my regular blog. Don't get mad or upset if you don't like what I have to say, it's a free country and we all have our opinions and this is what I have to do.