Ugh, so last week I did good until Thursday and started having issues with my heart and really thought I was working up to a heart attack. Scared me bad so I stopped my diet regime and just went to normal life and everything ended up normal. Doctor said it was anxiety mixed with all the changes I made in my diet, etc. So I took 3-4 days off and I'm back on again.
I have had alot going and work brings alot of stress some days. So we shall see what happens tomorrow. Just going to keep getting back up, LOL.
Tuesday, April 16, 2013
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
Hardest Battle
Battle of the bulge... this is my hardest battle ever. I am in a love relationship and it's with flavor. I love food!!! If I can't find tasty food, flavorful food I will give up, I know this before I even begin. I've given up soooooo many times before. It's frustrating, aggravating and makes me very angry at myself. I'm a strong person in so many areas yet struggle in my weight and eating.
So, here I go again... Trying something new for me and mixing it with the old. Breakfast Shakes, Advocare. Spark, for extra energy and then I found I can drink and like, V8 Fusion in a can and it's very tasty.
This is day 4 of this old yet new journey and so far so good.
Saturday I did GREAT!!! I didn't eat enough calories though so I bottomed out Saturday night and struggled with my body not feeling well or responding well on Sunday morning. I ate rather than a shake Sunday morning because I was feeling so weak and shaky, nauseous, dizzy, etc. I taught Sunday School and then was on Praise Team... I had a really hard time pushing my body to worship and I felt very disoriented or maybe a better word is my mind was struggling with delayed thoughts. LOL. I struggled to respond and thought a couple times I would just slap pass out but I made it and talked to a friend freshly back on a diet and she was struggling like I was and she felt like it was lack of calories the day before.
Sunday Lunch I threw together Frozen Pulled Pork from Costco, boiled okra and hominy with a little cheese and had Dr. Pepper with lunch. Very very good if I do say so myself. LOL. Later in the afternoon I had more okra and about 6 crackers with some cheddar cheese and a small glass of Dr. Pepper.
Monday morning I woke up not feeling hungry and no cravings for food. Made my shake, grabbed a bottle of water along with my stuff for work and ran. Let my shake sit a little too long and it got kinda thick and I had to really fight to get it down because on top of thickening up it got warm. **gag** But I'm determined right now so I fought it down and won!!!
About 12 I HAD to eat so I warmed up my P.J's Organic Skinny Chicken Burrito, which is very good flavor and for me. LOL. About halfway through I was full and couldn't eat another bite. Then about 2 I started feeling blah so I make up a Spark and drank a V8 Fusion Strawberry Banana flavor. When I was leaving work at 6 I had had less than 700 calories and since I am learning my body needs fuel I knew I had to eat and make up some calories so I went ahead and stopped by In and Out Burger and got a cheeseburger, fries & a coke. I'm pretty good and judging my body and the affects of what I eat so I thought I would just see what happened. I felt find through Praise Team practice, usually I'm worn out and just wish I could go home and sleep but nope, I felt great! Started yawning around 9pm and thought, cool, I'll get home and just fall asleep, NOPE. LOL.
2am my mind/brain turned off and sleep found me, BUT, I woke up at 4am, last time I opened my eyes and peeked at the clock it was 4:32am. I was up at 6:30 to jump up, dress and run out the door. LOL.
Woke up this morning and OH MY WORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanted a biscuit from McDonalds or Whataburger soooooooooo bad. I didn't though, had to come into work early so I made my shake when I got here and it's now gone, into me belly. LOL. Got my bottle of water and a V8 Fusion sitting here to sip on. For lunch I brought quiche left over from dinner at the house last night so I have 2 small pcs, not sure I'll like the artichoke one but it's all I brought so it's do or die. Have a Spark to make up also, then tonight we may be going out to dinner with my brother and his family. I'll not go overboard but I will enjoy myself I'm sure. Water instead of soda is the plan. OH and this morning I don't feel heavy, bloated, like I ate bad last night so I think with the small amounts I ate all day I was fine with a burger and fries, still stayed in my man calories to loose weight so I'm fine. My new dress I'm wearing for the first time feels looser than when I first bought it a couple weeks ago so I know if I can keep up the good work I can do this for me!!!
Plus, several people recently seem to believe I'll marry sooner than later. LOL. Can I have their faith? Gotta lose this weight now and not crash diet then. HAHAHA. Just kidding.
So here is to a great day!!!
So, here I go again... Trying something new for me and mixing it with the old. Breakfast Shakes, Advocare. Spark, for extra energy and then I found I can drink and like, V8 Fusion in a can and it's very tasty.
This is day 4 of this old yet new journey and so far so good.
Saturday I did GREAT!!! I didn't eat enough calories though so I bottomed out Saturday night and struggled with my body not feeling well or responding well on Sunday morning. I ate rather than a shake Sunday morning because I was feeling so weak and shaky, nauseous, dizzy, etc. I taught Sunday School and then was on Praise Team... I had a really hard time pushing my body to worship and I felt very disoriented or maybe a better word is my mind was struggling with delayed thoughts. LOL. I struggled to respond and thought a couple times I would just slap pass out but I made it and talked to a friend freshly back on a diet and she was struggling like I was and she felt like it was lack of calories the day before.
Sunday Lunch I threw together Frozen Pulled Pork from Costco, boiled okra and hominy with a little cheese and had Dr. Pepper with lunch. Very very good if I do say so myself. LOL. Later in the afternoon I had more okra and about 6 crackers with some cheddar cheese and a small glass of Dr. Pepper.
Monday morning I woke up not feeling hungry and no cravings for food. Made my shake, grabbed a bottle of water along with my stuff for work and ran. Let my shake sit a little too long and it got kinda thick and I had to really fight to get it down because on top of thickening up it got warm. **gag** But I'm determined right now so I fought it down and won!!!
About 12 I HAD to eat so I warmed up my P.J's Organic Skinny Chicken Burrito, which is very good flavor and for me. LOL. About halfway through I was full and couldn't eat another bite. Then about 2 I started feeling blah so I make up a Spark and drank a V8 Fusion Strawberry Banana flavor. When I was leaving work at 6 I had had less than 700 calories and since I am learning my body needs fuel I knew I had to eat and make up some calories so I went ahead and stopped by In and Out Burger and got a cheeseburger, fries & a coke. I'm pretty good and judging my body and the affects of what I eat so I thought I would just see what happened. I felt find through Praise Team practice, usually I'm worn out and just wish I could go home and sleep but nope, I felt great! Started yawning around 9pm and thought, cool, I'll get home and just fall asleep, NOPE. LOL.
2am my mind/brain turned off and sleep found me, BUT, I woke up at 4am, last time I opened my eyes and peeked at the clock it was 4:32am. I was up at 6:30 to jump up, dress and run out the door. LOL.
Woke up this morning and OH MY WORD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanted a biscuit from McDonalds or Whataburger soooooooooo bad. I didn't though, had to come into work early so I made my shake when I got here and it's now gone, into me belly. LOL. Got my bottle of water and a V8 Fusion sitting here to sip on. For lunch I brought quiche left over from dinner at the house last night so I have 2 small pcs, not sure I'll like the artichoke one but it's all I brought so it's do or die. Have a Spark to make up also, then tonight we may be going out to dinner with my brother and his family. I'll not go overboard but I will enjoy myself I'm sure. Water instead of soda is the plan. OH and this morning I don't feel heavy, bloated, like I ate bad last night so I think with the small amounts I ate all day I was fine with a burger and fries, still stayed in my man calories to loose weight so I'm fine. My new dress I'm wearing for the first time feels looser than when I first bought it a couple weeks ago so I know if I can keep up the good work I can do this for me!!!
Plus, several people recently seem to believe I'll marry sooner than later. LOL. Can I have their faith? Gotta lose this weight now and not crash diet then. HAHAHA. Just kidding.
So here is to a great day!!!
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